#Confessions T’was the Day Before Turkey Day

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And, all through the house..

The only creature stirring… is ME and my new baby April! 
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Happy Wednesday! 

I am running five miler tomorrow morning! #EarnYourTurkey or in my case, prime rib #EarnYourPrimeRib lol. Taking today as a rest day as far as workouts! Stretching and a little yoga. I have shopping and cleaning to do today!

Tomorrow is going to be weird. It is the first with out my Mother In Law, it was hard enough without Father In Law, and my Sister In Law is not hosting, Thanksgiving this year. My daughter is growing up and is in Alaska with her boyfriend visiting his mom, and my son is working. I think my husband is hunting in the morning.

My kids aren’t even out of the house and I am getting a taste of being an “Empty Nester!”

My daughter left on Saturday. She is only 17 (going on 25) and it was quite scary for ME to be honest! I’m more worried about the weather than anything. But, I’m lonely.

You would think I would be super productive. And, hopefully I can SAY that at the end of the day, however I have been … well lazy!

Maybe, a little Winter Blues. Sitting with my happy lamp on me as I type.

Where’s my REAL confession?! 

I have paid to upgrade this blog a long time ago, at least 6 months. All I really need to do it get on the phone with Blue Host and let them walk me through the transfer. This scares me, literally I fear change. I’ve tossed around the idea of starting a Blog from scratch. Still, this weighs on me. I was going to post my giveaway on Monday, but noticed the dates I wrote down were wrong, so…. what better way to kick off the new blog or new “old” blog than with a giveaway. 🙂

Another confession… I have been binging last couple days. I mean real honest to goodness, mindless eating until I feel sick. I do NOT purge, I just simply inhale food.

Honestly, I wrote it out, what I “really” come up with for reasons why, is I just had a scale victory. I didn’t realize that I had lost 20 lbs until I got on the same scale from two months ago. According to my clothes I knew I lost weight, but it wasn’t until i seen the number on the scale that I think I freaked out and started eating!

(I’ve had different forms of ED though the years) I’ll save all that for another blog.

So, I will recognize and accept that “that just happened!” And, move forward. As always easier said than done, but I put myself on front street and put a sticky note on fridge and cupboards to be “mindful” of my eating!

I am very thankful that I can recognize this pattern only a couple days in to the binge, because I will NOT “have” to lose progress. And, I should be PUMPED from MY success, not let it bring me down!

I am not even worried about tomorrow. I’m cooking so it’s gonna be a good post run Thanksgiving Feast!

So, tell me one confession and one thing to be thankful for!?!?! 

Wishing Everyone a wonderful day,

Laurie~

 

 

Randomness #JustBecause

Happy Wednesday! 

It’s two o’clock in the morning….

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Just Kidding! I just can’t sleep! I am not at home, I am watching my friends kids while her parents have surgery. It just so happens that the strongest windstorm ever recorded hit Washington State and the worst is where my friend is at, poor girl in a Hotel in the dark! (I would HATE that!) Luckily, her dad’s surgery was today and she had to spend the night, and she didn’t have to drive back home (which would of been REALLY bad,) because her mom’s pre-op appointment is tomorrow.

If I had my Journal this would be a major Brain Dump moment, but I don’t I have my blog — and here I am.

I have so much to be thankful for and so many exciting things are happening over the next few months, well… the randomness never ends!

I’m currently doing the Holiday Sweat Challenge with Run To The Finish and Fit Approach. I have my 5 miler Virtual Race Next week with Running on The Wall #EarnYourTurkey race. I’m kind of EXCITED! I’ve been getting in shape and my running is improving each and every time I run! This week, Holiday Sweat is focused on Core, which I have been neglecting lately! Something I realized I need to focus more attention on!

Side Random Note: I have another giveaway starting soon! Be on the lookout!

My last giveaway was so much fun I LOVE doing them! My winner Was Sandra from A Promise To Dad Blog.  I am loving her blog!

On another note I WON a giveaway! (I guess what goes around, comes around!) I won the Sunwarrior Giveaway from Susie’s amazing blog Suz Lyfe.

Geez… I could write forever right now, but I need to try to get a couple hours sleep before these kids wake up and have to be taken to all different schools!

Hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday!

Nameste

 

Thursday Tribe Talk — Thankful Thursday

Happy Thursday!

What am I THANKFUL for today?! My Friends & My Tribe!

I don’t know about you, but I have a few amazing tribes that I belong to, both online and in person.

My circle of friends is small and I like it that way. I gave up the friends that cause all the drama, a long time ago. (Well, maybe there is just one .. but love them anyways!)

I can’t even explain with enough gratitude and words my online connections! Like it’s pretty freaking amazing! It’s just so weird, because you connect with people on another level. At least I do. I have different groups and tribes for different areas of my life that “I NEED” support. And, support is always a click away.

How did I find my “tribes?” 

  • Most of the time my tribe just found me via. some sort of Social Media.
  • I joined the right groups on Facebook. (The ones with NO DRAMA!)
  • What you seek is also seeking you — Rumi (Think about it!)
  • Synchronicity.
  • Reaching out personally to people in groups or online that I know belong in my tribe, has been the key.

My Real Life Tribe?

This took years and years of literally weeding out friends. But, all the bad friendship’s that I have had have taught me a lesson! So, I value the time I spent, even if there was a lot of drama, not gonna lie a lot of CRAZY fun was involved too!

As we grow our needs change, our friendship needs change as well! 

I always get this amazing feeling that I am “being led” through life, and the people in my life are there for a reason! and one person I am led to may know my next best friend!

How about you? I would love to hear from you? I’m pretty sure you all have your own tribes! What are your thoughts I would love to hear from you! 

Thankful Thursday — Vacation Time

Happy Thursday!

I am so THANKFUL today! I was so excited today, that I literally sprung from bed at 3AM and did a happy dance. Then I woke up and started my list of everything to take care of before I actually get out the door. Have a lot of homework, clean, packing, etc. But, I am becoming so much more Organized, that it’s going to be easy pretty easy to get ready, just a little time consuming. I decided last night It was bed early instead or getting everything ready last night. Well it wouldn’t feel like a “vacation” if I wasn’t scrambling around and forgetting stuff.

Where am I going? Well, it’s not a tropical beach, but I’ll take it!

Seattle!

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At any rate… a getaway is much needed! It sure beats all these “stay cations” that I tend to do in the Winter!

Can you say “Cabin Fever?!?!?!?!!”

Not sure how long I will be gone for, but I will be grateful for anytime that me an hubby get!I am running away from the last couple weeks. I can’t decide if I want to totally “unplug” electronics, while I am away. I am trying to stay until Sunday, because I got invited to a Lorna Jane Downtown Seattle event, workout with Jenn from, For the Glow on Sunday afternoon. we planned on coming home Sunday. But now I really want to stay!

Seattle isn’t that far from me, about a four hour drive. One good thing is….I know that it’s the healthiest place on Earth and I am really good at staying on track in Seattle!

Anyways, a Vacation is a Vacation! I’m leaving kids in charge of Mother in Law, or am I leaving Mother in Law in charge of kids? Defiantly the Kids are in charge LOL!

Note to self — Need to plan MORE getaways! I real Vacation with a Beach and Sunshine… needs to get planned for Spring Break A.S.A.P. !!!!

Pretty much packing workout gear and one nice outfit. 😉 Forgetting stuff like underwear and socks on purpose so that I “have” to but new haha!

I have a lot to do and hubby it the type that jumps out of bed and says, “leaving in five min,” so I better get busy. ❤

Question

When and Where was your last vacation? Next vacation? Stay-cation?

 

 

 

Friday — Finding My Way Back — To Loving Me

Happy Friday~*

O.K. Stop…… I am pushing the RESET button!

WARNING!!! Early morning rants & raves  & random thoughts!

So, Life happened & major changes happened. Taking care of my Mother in Law and having her in my home is a lot more emotional and a lot more work than I had thought. Not that I thought it would be easy, but I really didn’t “know” what it would be like, until it happened…….

If you don’t know, I just went through a super MAJOR life change within a week! Pretty much since the 1st my Mother in Law (from only a mile away,) had been in and out of the hospital with Liver Failure, until this last time where she was vomiting blood. Which was bad, they call it end stage Liver Failure, because her liver just not functioning and she is bloated like having twins from a really tiny 64 year old lady. Well, Friday night Bother and Sister in law (who live 5 min away) decided that she was moving in with us. And, out of the hose she could Alcohol and lived with a lady who is a pill popper. Well, I anticipated a couple days to get house at least cleaned up and at least started clearing to make room for her. Nope, Saturday morning Brother in Law calls says, “we are doing this now.” If you already heard this story I apologize(It is 3am after all.) Well, honestly anyone “just stopping by and being in my house” is something of my re-occurring nightmares. Much less a Bro in Law who is “judgy” and hasn’t been in my home in years even though though they live close. My home was never “clean” enough for them. In my heart it was never “clean enough” for me, I just didn’t know where to begin with clutter. And, cleaning and keeping it clean. I’m a “Stash N Dash” kind of girl! which never solved the problem, just created more problems.

Anyways, long story short, (lol) my brother in law, and husband cleaned out two of my STASH rooms while I worked on the rest of the house Saturday + The garage to get ready to my MIL’s crap. It took a few dump trips and god knows what they got rid of, but as far as my New Year’s Resolution of getting organized and keeping the house clean…. I got a huge jump start. As mentioned before I am going through a kind of clutter program, 8 weeks using a Feng Shui way of getting rid of clutter for good, dealing with emotions, holistic healing, and space clearing and creating more energy, not just in the home, but in general. It’s been one of my favorite websites and email news letters (not fitness related…but def wellness related,)for over a year, and I went through The Artist Way Book with her Group. Dana Claudat whose website, I swear, The Universe guided me to over a year ago, has been a life changer. The Tao of Dana, has been my inspiration for so many things. I knew the second I found the website that I had been searching for this for years.

Last few days, besides being busy, I am physically and mentally exhausted. I am not used to having someone around all the time, so I haven’t been getting my workouts in at home even or meeting my friends at the gym. I got off track on my detox that I was doing and basically… quit taking time for myself. I didn’t give up, LIFE just happened, now it’s time to move forward. Between taking care of my Mother in Law and trying to keep up on what was already done to the house, there have been nurses in and out, physical therapists etc. I’ve been trying to keep up on school work and just maintain the house from what has already been done. Well, I still have lots and lots and O.K. LOTS of work to do to the house so it’s not so much damn work all the time. My closets, drawers, and some other rooms, I get to work on now, at my own pace and get back to doing The clutter program, Catalyst Camp, the way I wanted to, on MY terms!

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But, first I have to get back to some MAJOR Self-Love, Self-Care, and putting ME first. Because. quite honestly, I got burnt out and drained emotionally. This is where……. I PUSH THE RESET BUTTON!

First, getting off-track with MY FAVORITE challenge of every New Year, (basically a real food detox,) The Resolution Challenge, from For The Glow, felt really defeating for me to give in and give up. Back and forth to the hospital, all my food prep was going bad and eating out started happening and I’m not going to beat myself up over this, however, I am going to re-start!

Ingesting “junk” in my body and not getting my workouts in, is simply not an option, I had already gained winter weight. So, now this is MY TIME to prioritize and get back to some great Self-Love and start treating MY Body like the temple it is. Getting more sleep, getting my ME TIME, Meditation, writing in my journal, and striking a balance in my body, home, and everything in my life is now TOP priority. I need to take care of ME in order to care for others.

I have everything thing I need.

I have the desire.

I have determination.

I have the resources.

I HAVE the time.

I don’t think I can, I KNOW I can.

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YES! So, let the clearing begin, from my insides to my outsides.

It’s time for me. It’s time to strike a balance in all areas of my life!

It’s time to DETOX my life. I had a set back with all the super craziness, now I am friggin READY!

 

Loving Note — From Future Self

Dear Self,

Hello YOU!

What are you doing out of bed at 1 AM? Oh, couldn’t sleep again, too much on your mind. Stop going to bed so early! Make sure you have things finished before you go to sleep, so you quit waking up all night long with instant replays going on in your head about what you need to do, what you didn’t get that day, and what you need to do tomorrow and the next day and the next day! Stop stressing out over nothing. The is no point. You are on the right path, you have everything you need. The Universe has your back.

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Again…I cannot stress this enough, stop worrying and stressing out all the time over nothing. Your future is bright, all you have to do it take a deep breath, be grateful, and enjoy the ride. You know you are on the right path. All this signs are there and excellent job there on picking up on them. Now it’s time to piece the puzzle together and put in the work that you know will not be hard at all. Take the leap, you know what for.

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I say this all with love.

Listen to your inner voice and not your inner critic.

Nourish your body with food. Good clean healthy food! (You WILL thank me later!)

Honor your body, with daily exercise.

Honor your Soul, with daily love and meditation.

You only have one body so take very good care of it for me.

That extra weight you are carrying is not meant for you. Get rid of it NOW!

Get rid of everything that is not serving you.

Take action steps daily, for your amazingly successful future. You already know what they are. Just do it. Stop waiting. The time is now. And, the time is right. Everything is in place, you just have to take off and fly. There is nothing to worry about, the wheels are already in motion.

Now, drink your good night tea finish your list and GO BACK TO BED! Today will be amazing! I know how much you like your sleep now GO!

With loving kindness,

Your Future Self~

 

 

Monday Madness — Getting Started and Finding Balance

Happy Motivation Monday!

Why and What Am I Starting?

CLEANING HOUSE — This going to be my very personal, Monday Feature on my blog about My Messy Home. I am starting a 8 week journey with The Tao of Dana called Catalyst camp for clearing clutter and finding balance in my home. Why? Because, I feel like mess and  home clutter have ruled my life for long enough! I really feel that this has been holding me back in every aspect of my life. This is a huge task for me and I don’t want to get burned out!

Cleaning My Body — Detox Day One  — which starts today. This I will talk about on another day here in the Blog. Why? I do this every year. This is connected to my home, because I need the energy to work my way though my home!

Today is Day One — I count today as the real first day in my New Year. Today is also, my first day of school. Everything seems to start today. It will all come down to three things — Balance — Commitment — Planning.

I woke up a few times all night, finally got out of bed too early (3am) ready to get started. Woke up with my mind running 100 mph.  full force! Going through the first week of school work, making lists, watching videos for Clutter Camp, and writing in my journal and setting solid intentions.

First of all — me and 3am are NOT friends. But, I had to get everything written out, spent some time meditating, and really going over my plan for the week, adding in the new stuff that I could not access until this morning. Reading my Syllabus’s for my classes and In fact, this week for the detox I am allowed one cup of Organic Coffee. This was not enough. week two no coffee EEK!

Balance — I am ready to go take a nap after I finish this blog knowing that my intentions are set, and I have read what is going on with all of these challenges. I may be a little overwhelmed, but they are all connected in order to achieve balance. Getting enough sleep is a MAJOR thing I need to get a handle on. I don’t WANT to be waking up every morning with lists and “stuff” that needs to be done stressing me out before I even step out of bed.

Confidence — Now that I have reviewed everything, I know what I am in for. And, I totally got this $hit! I can go back for a nap knowing what my plan is and what I want to accomplish over the next 6-8 weeks & balance in school, fitness certifications, what I am gonna eat,and what my workouts will be.

Planning — I feel set with my plan without getting overwhelmed! I am not going to clean my whole home in a day. It took YEARS to get like this I am not expecting it to magically cleaned, organized, and fixed up overnight. It will take the full 8 weeks! The Detox is going to be a challenge mentally and physically. I know this, this is my third year so I know what to expect and how AWESOME I am going to feel in a couple weeks! If you don’t know me I LIVE for challenges and for everything I have a great support system in place and accountability partners!

Link-Party! I love that I had already committed to the focus on my home and dedicate one day a week on the blog to update progress! I was thrilled, when I came across the Blog Link-Up for Monday’s from: How to Get Organized at Home. Not only am I finding some amazing blogs, tips, and new blogging friends,  It gives me different ideas and perspectives. I highly recommend checking out the links the that are all in one location.

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Not a whole lot to report yet (It is Day One after all!) I have been clearing some spaces the last couple weeks. But, I am currently struggling to keep up on dailies and add in the clearing of clutter!

OK! I am ready! ….For a NAP! Now that I have my ducks in a row, I can take a nap in peace and without stress or worry about what is in store for me!

XOXO,

Laurie~