#Confessions T’was the Day Before Turkey Day

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And, all through the house..

The only creature stirring… is ME and my new baby April! 
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Happy Wednesday! 

I am running five miler tomorrow morning! #EarnYourTurkey or in my case, prime rib #EarnYourPrimeRib lol. Taking today as a rest day as far as workouts! Stretching and a little yoga. I have shopping and cleaning to do today!

Tomorrow is going to be weird. It is the first with out my Mother In Law, it was hard enough without Father In Law, and my Sister In Law is not hosting, Thanksgiving this year. My daughter is growing up and is in Alaska with her boyfriend visiting his mom, and my son is working. I think my husband is hunting in the morning.

My kids aren’t even out of the house and I am getting a taste of being an “Empty Nester!”

My daughter left on Saturday. She is only 17 (going on 25) and it was quite scary for ME to be honest! I’m more worried about the weather than anything. But, I’m lonely.

You would think I would be super productive. And, hopefully I can SAY that at the end of the day, however I have been … well lazy!

Maybe, a little Winter Blues. Sitting with my happy lamp on me as I type.

Where’s my REAL confession?! 

I have paid to upgrade this blog a long time ago, at least 6 months. All I really need to do it get on the phone with Blue Host and let them walk me through the transfer. This scares me, literally I fear change. I’ve tossed around the idea of starting a Blog from scratch. Still, this weighs on me. I was going to post my giveaway on Monday, but noticed the dates I wrote down were wrong, so…. what better way to kick off the new blog or new “old” blog than with a giveaway. 🙂

Another confession… I have been binging last couple days. I mean real honest to goodness, mindless eating until I feel sick. I do NOT purge, I just simply inhale food.

Honestly, I wrote it out, what I “really” come up with for reasons why, is I just had a scale victory. I didn’t realize that I had lost 20 lbs until I got on the same scale from two months ago. According to my clothes I knew I lost weight, but it wasn’t until i seen the number on the scale that I think I freaked out and started eating!

(I’ve had different forms of ED though the years) I’ll save all that for another blog.

So, I will recognize and accept that “that just happened!” And, move forward. As always easier said than done, but I put myself on front street and put a sticky note on fridge and cupboards to be “mindful” of my eating!

I am very thankful that I can recognize this pattern only a couple days in to the binge, because I will NOT “have” to lose progress. And, I should be PUMPED from MY success, not let it bring me down!

I am not even worried about tomorrow. I’m cooking so it’s gonna be a good post run Thanksgiving Feast!

So, tell me one confession and one thing to be thankful for!?!?! 

Wishing Everyone a wonderful day,

Laurie~

 

 

Randomness #JustBecause

Happy Wednesday! 

It’s two o’clock in the morning….

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Just Kidding! I just can’t sleep! I am not at home, I am watching my friends kids while her parents have surgery. It just so happens that the strongest windstorm ever recorded hit Washington State and the worst is where my friend is at, poor girl in a Hotel in the dark! (I would HATE that!) Luckily, her dad’s surgery was today and she had to spend the night, and she didn’t have to drive back home (which would of been REALLY bad,) because her mom’s pre-op appointment is tomorrow.

If I had my Journal this would be a major Brain Dump moment, but I don’t I have my blog — and here I am.

I have so much to be thankful for and so many exciting things are happening over the next few months, well… the randomness never ends!

I’m currently doing the Holiday Sweat Challenge with Run To The Finish and Fit Approach. I have my 5 miler Virtual Race Next week with Running on The Wall #EarnYourTurkey race. I’m kind of EXCITED! I’ve been getting in shape and my running is improving each and every time I run! This week, Holiday Sweat is focused on Core, which I have been neglecting lately! Something I realized I need to focus more attention on!

Side Random Note: I have another giveaway starting soon! Be on the lookout!

My last giveaway was so much fun I LOVE doing them! My winner Was Sandra from A Promise To Dad Blog.  I am loving her blog!

On another note I WON a giveaway! (I guess what goes around, comes around!) I won the Sunwarrior Giveaway from Susie’s amazing blog Suz Lyfe.

Geez… I could write forever right now, but I need to try to get a couple hours sleep before these kids wake up and have to be taken to all different schools!

Hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday!

Nameste

 

Thankful Thursday — Back to Basics

Happy Thankful Thursday!

Today I am thankful for….

Life.

Good Morning. If you read my blog you would know, I complained in the past, a lot about “SUPER” early morning wake-ups! Lately, I had been waking up around 9-10 A.M. My sleep schedule is all messed up and it feels like the days have been flying by and I am just not getting anything done by sleeping in that late, when I am waking up so late groggy . This morning I woke up around 4:45 A.M. and got out of bed a little after 5 A.M. A perfect time in my opinion. I had been on one extreme or another. Need to find my middle ground and start waking up on my own, somewhere between 5-6 A.M would be ideal.

I decided, I am in desperate need to get back on a  sleep schedule with early wake-ups and get my motivation and energy back!

I am still grieving the loss of my Mother In Law. I really didn’t know that it would hit me so hard. Ever since my Mother in Law was released from the hospital straight to my house, at the very beginning of January, I feel like my “LIFE” has been on hold. There has been non-stop stress in my life, and that needs to change. My Mother and Father in Law, have not lived more than five minuets away my entire marriage. I did not grow up here. When I was seventeen I got on a Greyhound Bus to go visit my future husband and family in Washington State from Michigan and never really looked back. I took on his family as my own with all the family drama and love, that come along with it. Now, with both parents gone, I feel lost. I have ALL of her stuff in my house, her things, literally take up three rooms in my house.  I have not been able to “deal” with her stuff yet. I think I sunk into a little bit of depression. I’m lucky to keep up on the dailies and keeping the main areas clear. However, moving forward has been harder than I could ever have imagined. It’s felt like I have been overwhelmed and stressed out since this year has started.

My daughter just had foot surgery a couple days ago and is non-weight bearing for 6 weeks and at least three months recovery time. Then she will do the other foot. So, now I am taking care of her. And, trust me she is more work than my Mother in Law was while she was dying. I feel like I just haven’t had a chance to “Just Breathe!”

This morning, while everyone is sleeping, I finally feel ready to get back to life. I am ready to enjoy life. I am ready to live each day to it’s fullest. I am ready to take back control of my home, health, and other responsibilities.

Moving Forward…..

Goals, Dreams, Life, Success, It’s MY time. Time to get back to putting myself first. The first step is just “showing up!” The second step, “showing up!” And, the third step, “showing up!” I am still on Spring break, and ready to “deal” with all the stuff of my Mother In Laws. This is going to require a LOT of work and a BIG yard sale.

Back on the Mat and back on the road! Signing up today for the Bloomsday Marathon in Spokane Washington. It’s at the beginning of May, so I am starting my training NOW. I have 38 days to prepare for this. Working out everyday, and stopping stress eating is one of my main priorities. A daily session with my Yoga Mat to avoid injury and get myself centered and grounded again is TOP Priority!

One day at a time!!!!!!

Daily blogging is also on my priority list. Also, my own personal writing, some awesome freelance opportunities, and continue writing my book. I’ve had days the past few months, where I couldn’t even bring myself to turn on my computer. Also, there are some awesome giveaways, and a total blog “make-over” coming SOON!

As ALWAYS, my plate is full. But, full of wonderful things to look forward to. Accomplishments to achieve and GOALS to focus on, to keep me busy and LIVE my life with the intention of finding balance and just jumping right back in with 110% effort to accomplish what I want and need!

So, Thankful Thursday! I am thankful that I have a renewed focus and new appreciation of living each day to it’s fullest.

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Question of the day!?!?!

What are you Thankful for today?! What can you do today that your future self will thank you for????

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello Sunshine

Happy Sunday~*

O.K. So, I had to take a break!

During this last week of Catalyst Camp, the challenge was to Digital Detox.

This was just fine with me, because all I had been having is internet issues and other things that could go wrong with electronics! It was really hard, I didn’t go cold turkey or anything, but I did keep my computer turned off as much as possible. It really was a eye online on how attached I really am to all my electronics. And, since nothing was working right anyways, it was perfect timing.

I spent my time doing other things. It wasn’t actually a total detox, because I still would have the T.V. on music or something. But, I tried my best to keep one thing on at a time.

All of a sudden, spring arrived early (I hope) and the weather has been beautiful the last couple days. Now it’s time to finish some MAJOR de-cluttering and really put all effort in th

e last two weeks of The Fend Shui, Catalyst Camp. I really hope the weather stays like this, I have so much crap to get rid of still, but I have come so far. I really have a semi-smooth running house. It is the stuff I have been avoiding going through! Probably, because it’s a lot of work! My major areas are paperwork, closets & drawers, and my bedroom!

Also, I spent a couple weeks being sick. Flu made its way around my house. The gray weather wasn’t helping either added to extra stress. Now, I am just trying to get energy back and early spring allergies.

I am going to make some goals that are for my health.

❤ Make my health a major priority. I made it to the gym once last week, luckily it was restorative yoga.

Now I am ready for more and get back into my workout routines! Time to start Marathon training and daily yoga or workouts and just go for it! Summer is right around the corner!

Anyways….

I just wanted to give a update! I will be back on Monday with a Giveaway starting and daily blogs.

It’s Time to get back in action. I feel like; I’ve been really off my game and really needed that time to rejuvenate and unplug.

Hope you are had a wonderful weekend!

Whatever Wednesday

Happy HUMP Day!

Geez halfway through the week already! Insomnia strikes again! It doesn’t help that I slept yesterday away! I think I was exhausted and it all finally caught up with me yesterday.

I woke up to this……….
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Yup, that is my back deck off off the kitchen upstairs. My hubby was smoking fish and tried to burn the house down! Lucky the smoker didn’t burn all the way though the floor! Or, do any damage to the house. So, really just have to replace the support beam and 4 or 5 boards.

I put out the fire, (my house smelt like burnt fish all day!) and then I went back to bed! Besides not feeling very good and being exhausted, it just felt like a good day to lock myself in my room!

I slept almost all day! It was NICE! Until this morning when I woke up at 2 AM! Refused to get out of bed until 3:30 and then been playing on the computer, journaling, and catching up on The Originals.

I realized something important that I had not fully realized…………

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I’m not even kidding! Somehow, my New Year’s Resolution stuck. and, I have been very, very busy getting my home in order! I still have tons and tons of work to do still… But, my house FEELS really good and has been kept up onto the point Visitors can just drop by! This is like huge for me, all my friends know they need to give me at least a hour to stash and dash!

O.K. So having my Mother In Law move in with us, really forced me to make the change. Forced a LOT of changes! I was just getting used to having lots of time to myself. Now I have to take my time to myself while the whole house is sleeping!

FYI — Feng Shui ROCKS.

Not only is my home transforming, everything around me is transforming. I can’t believe how much I raised my own personal energy. I am changing, for the better! I feel like clutter has been holding me back from EVERYTHING in my life! It only took one month for things to settle down and now starting to put routines in place and now I actually feel like I am moving forward. Not just with the house, but everything in my life seems to be moving forward. Even with being sick, taking care of mother in law, a stupid injury, a fire, and I swear, Mercury Retrograde is kicking my booty, but I am still O.K. and moving forward. My eating cleaned up a lot, my house is full of healthy food at all times, maybe one more day of staying at home and then I am ready to get back to the gym. It really blows getting injured & being sick! AND, keeping up with all my homework…. I feel like my creativity blocks are removed and it feels pretty awesome!

I still have a LOT of work to do on the house. My Mother In Law came with her own clutter. So, now I have to work on getting rid of all my $hit as well as hers! Cleared out spaces only to fill them back up again. I have a lot of cleaning I need to do as well. Especially, the stuff that never get’s cleaned.

NOW…..

It’s time to get back into my workout routines! Going to start with some For The Glow, at home workouts and Tara Stiles videos! My friends should be back from their vacations soon, so I will have my workout partners back.

Right now…

Time for ME…. is the most important item on my to-do lists! It’s so easy to get busy and get burnt out. I feel refreshed and ready to put my “Success Hat” back on! Moving forward…………

I am getting so much better at managing my time. I am also learning the importance of disconnecting from electronics! I just get overloaded and need to take a break every once in a while and make sure that I am using my time productively, while I am online!

I am also, doing a digital detox this week through the Catalyst Camp and learning about EMF’s. Something so simple as changing my wallpapers and screen savers on my phone made a huge difference and now I am working at cleaning up files, pics, emails, etc. And, making sure everything is all backed up.

Last but not least I am putting the work in on some awesome opportunities!

January was not my month! February is short, but I think I will be getting a lot accomplished this month!

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Thankful Thursday — Vacation Time

Happy Thursday!

I am so THANKFUL today! I was so excited today, that I literally sprung from bed at 3AM and did a happy dance. Then I woke up and started my list of everything to take care of before I actually get out the door. Have a lot of homework, clean, packing, etc. But, I am becoming so much more Organized, that it’s going to be easy pretty easy to get ready, just a little time consuming. I decided last night It was bed early instead or getting everything ready last night. Well it wouldn’t feel like a “vacation” if I wasn’t scrambling around and forgetting stuff.

Where am I going? Well, it’s not a tropical beach, but I’ll take it!

Seattle!

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At any rate… a getaway is much needed! It sure beats all these “stay cations” that I tend to do in the Winter!

Can you say “Cabin Fever?!?!?!?!!”

Not sure how long I will be gone for, but I will be grateful for anytime that me an hubby get!I am running away from the last couple weeks. I can’t decide if I want to totally “unplug” electronics, while I am away. I am trying to stay until Sunday, because I got invited to a Lorna Jane Downtown Seattle event, workout with Jenn from, For the Glow on Sunday afternoon. we planned on coming home Sunday. But now I really want to stay!

Seattle isn’t that far from me, about a four hour drive. One good thing is….I know that it’s the healthiest place on Earth and I am really good at staying on track in Seattle!

Anyways, a Vacation is a Vacation! I’m leaving kids in charge of Mother in Law, or am I leaving Mother in Law in charge of kids? Defiantly the Kids are in charge LOL!

Note to self — Need to plan MORE getaways! I real Vacation with a Beach and Sunshine… needs to get planned for Spring Break A.S.A.P. !!!!

Pretty much packing workout gear and one nice outfit. 😉 Forgetting stuff like underwear and socks on purpose so that I “have” to but new haha!

I have a lot to do and hubby it the type that jumps out of bed and says, “leaving in five min,” so I better get busy. ❤

Question

When and Where was your last vacation? Next vacation? Stay-cation?

 

 

 

Late Night ~ Random Thoughts

Monday ~ Late Night!

ACK! I fell asleep at like 6ish! Had a headache after I FAILED a test, because I ran out of time. I put in my headphones, without music playing just to “kinda”drown out background noise. My mistake! I had My husband and Mother in Law on both sides of me, kids asking for things, Mother in Laws phone going off, and I didn’t tell them to “STFU!” I was on a tight time limit and as usual taking it last minute after studying all day.  Lesson Learned…the hard way. This class doesn’t offer much points, so this will severely affect my grade. Crazy how something so little can affect me so greatly. The Hubs and the MIL, didn’t seem to care or get why it was a big deal. I think only people in school, can understand other people in school! The stress of assignments and due dates etc. Kids fresh from high school have it easy. People like me have to work harder and care more about the outcome of every little assignment.

I didn’t even get to post my Monday (Home) feature today. (sigh)

BTW the house is coming along great. And, Catalyst Camp is exactly what I need right now. I’m loving it so much! It is like magic for my soul.

But…. seriously! I am faced with this new challenge (MIL living with us) and I’m getting really frustrated. I am trying my best, and my best is not good enough. at least it feels that way. I’m not perfect. I don’t want to be perfect. I just need some CALM!

Going back to sleep, I AM GOING to take it ALL out on my Mat in the morning!

Sorry, this post was pointless. I should of just grabbed my journal. But, I feel better letting out my frustration, and can hopefully go back to sleep.

Tomorrow is a New Day Full of Possibilities! XO

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