Friday — Finding My Way Back — To Loving Me

Happy Friday~*

O.K. Stop…… I am pushing the RESET button!

WARNING!!! Early morning rants & raves  & random thoughts!

So, Life happened & major changes happened. Taking care of my Mother in Law and having her in my home is a lot more emotional and a lot more work than I had thought. Not that I thought it would be easy, but I really didn’t “know” what it would be like, until it happened…….

If you don’t know, I just went through a super MAJOR life change within a week! Pretty much since the 1st my Mother in Law (from only a mile away,) had been in and out of the hospital with Liver Failure, until this last time where she was vomiting blood. Which was bad, they call it end stage Liver Failure, because her liver just not functioning and she is bloated like having twins from a really tiny 64 year old lady. Well, Friday night Bother and Sister in law (who live 5 min away) decided that she was moving in with us. And, out of the hose she could Alcohol and lived with a lady who is a pill popper. Well, I anticipated a couple days to get house at least cleaned up and at least started clearing to make room for her. Nope, Saturday morning Brother in Law calls says, “we are doing this now.” If you already heard this story I apologize(It is 3am after all.) Well, honestly anyone “just stopping by and being in my house” is something of my re-occurring nightmares. Much less a Bro in Law who is “judgy” and hasn’t been in my home in years even though though they live close. My home was never “clean” enough for them. In my heart it was never “clean enough” for me, I just didn’t know where to begin with clutter. And, cleaning and keeping it clean. I’m a “Stash N Dash” kind of girl! which never solved the problem, just created more problems.

Anyways, long story short, (lol) my brother in law, and husband cleaned out two of my STASH rooms while I worked on the rest of the house Saturday + The garage to get ready to my MIL’s crap. It took a few dump trips and god knows what they got rid of, but as far as my New Year’s Resolution of getting organized and keeping the house clean…. I got a huge jump start. As mentioned before I am going through a kind of clutter program, 8 weeks using a Feng Shui way of getting rid of clutter for good, dealing with emotions, holistic healing, and space clearing and creating more energy, not just in the home, but in general. It’s been one of my favorite websites and email news letters (not fitness related…but def wellness related,)for over a year, and I went through The Artist Way Book with her Group. Dana Claudat whose website, I swear, The Universe guided me to over a year ago, has been a life changer. The Tao of Dana, has been my inspiration for so many things. I knew the second I found the website that I had been searching for this for years.

Last few days, besides being busy, I am physically and mentally exhausted. I am not used to having someone around all the time, so I haven’t been getting my workouts in at home even or meeting my friends at the gym. I got off track on my detox that I was doing and basically… quit taking time for myself. I didn’t give up, LIFE just happened, now it’s time to move forward. Between taking care of my Mother in Law and trying to keep up on what was already done to the house, there have been nurses in and out, physical therapists etc. I’ve been trying to keep up on school work and just maintain the house from what has already been done. Well, I still have lots and lots and O.K. LOTS of work to do to the house so it’s not so much damn work all the time. My closets, drawers, and some other rooms, I get to work on now, at my own pace and get back to doing The clutter program, Catalyst Camp, the way I wanted to, on MY terms!

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But, first I have to get back to some MAJOR Self-Love, Self-Care, and putting ME first. Because. quite honestly, I got burnt out and drained emotionally. This is where……. I PUSH THE RESET BUTTON!

First, getting off-track with MY FAVORITE challenge of every New Year, (basically a real food detox,) The Resolution Challenge, from For The Glow, felt really defeating for me to give in and give up. Back and forth to the hospital, all my food prep was going bad and eating out started happening and I’m not going to beat myself up over this, however, I am going to re-start!

Ingesting “junk” in my body and not getting my workouts in, is simply not an option, I had already gained winter weight. So, now this is MY TIME to prioritize and get back to some great Self-Love and start treating MY Body like the temple it is. Getting more sleep, getting my ME TIME, Meditation, writing in my journal, and striking a balance in my body, home, and everything in my life is now TOP priority. I need to take care of ME in order to care for others.

I have everything thing I need.

I have the desire.

I have determination.

I have the resources.

I HAVE the time.

I don’t think I can, I KNOW I can.

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YES! So, let the clearing begin, from my insides to my outsides.

It’s time for me. It’s time to strike a balance in all areas of my life!

It’s time to DETOX my life. I had a set back with all the super craziness, now I am friggin READY!

 

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Loving Note — From Future Self

Dear Self,

Hello YOU!

What are you doing out of bed at 1 AM? Oh, couldn’t sleep again, too much on your mind. Stop going to bed so early! Make sure you have things finished before you go to sleep, so you quit waking up all night long with instant replays going on in your head about what you need to do, what you didn’t get that day, and what you need to do tomorrow and the next day and the next day! Stop stressing out over nothing. The is no point. You are on the right path, you have everything you need. The Universe has your back.

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Again…I cannot stress this enough, stop worrying and stressing out all the time over nothing. Your future is bright, all you have to do it take a deep breath, be grateful, and enjoy the ride. You know you are on the right path. All this signs are there and excellent job there on picking up on them. Now it’s time to piece the puzzle together and put in the work that you know will not be hard at all. Take the leap, you know what for.

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I say this all with love.

Listen to your inner voice and not your inner critic.

Nourish your body with food. Good clean healthy food! (You WILL thank me later!)

Honor your body, with daily exercise.

Honor your Soul, with daily love and meditation.

You only have one body so take very good care of it for me.

That extra weight you are carrying is not meant for you. Get rid of it NOW!

Get rid of everything that is not serving you.

Take action steps daily, for your amazingly successful future. You already know what they are. Just do it. Stop waiting. The time is now. And, the time is right. Everything is in place, you just have to take off and fly. There is nothing to worry about, the wheels are already in motion.

Now, drink your good night tea finish your list and GO BACK TO BED! Today will be amazing! I know how much you like your sleep now GO!

With loving kindness,

Your Future Self~

 

 

Feed My Soul Sunday — Ready – Set – GLOW

Happy Sunday!

Started off this morning with my Morning Pages,  meditation, and lighting candles & incense!

Got a little nostalgic last night reading through old journals, and blogs about my “yearly tradition,” The Resolution Challenge from For The Glow. Basically, it’s a Real food Detox. No sugar, meat, or Dairy. Typically in years past there was no coffee either, this year this week I am allowed one cup of Organic Coffee.

This is not as easy as it sounds. While I have had wonderful success with this in the past, I easily forget that it is not easy. Having the grocery list and my meals & workouts pretty much planned out for me is great, but the withdraws from everything (mentally and physically) takes it’s toll on me. And, I have to confess that I did NOT have the healthiest of Holidays! So, going in this year as opposed to last year is going to be much harder on me. The first year, it was a big wake up call, but I survived… So I will survive again this year! I am actually very excited about it!

Planning & Prepping & Shopping & Cleaning today! I am setting myself up for success.  Time to GLOW!

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Live Everyday With Intention!

Every morning this week… “Me Time!” I am waking up early and setting my daily intentions, journal writing everything from foods, to workouts, to what kind of mood I am in etc. I am also keeping a running journal of my “Time.” Time management is NOT one of my strengths. In fact time really just seems to slip by me throughout the day!

Every morning this week… I intend to #getupandglow !!! Water with lemon and fresh ginger first!

Every morning this week… I will get my workout in first. After my daily “Me time” my workout is first on the list!

Every Morning this week… I will set a block of time for cleaning & de-cluttering!

Every Morning this week… I will complete my homework before I can take a nap.

Every Afternoon this week… I will take a nap (lol.)

Every Evening this week… my intention is to get a evening routine in place.

– — – – – My Evening routine: “MORE ME TIME!”clean the kitchen after dinner, re-pick-up the areas that I had already cleaned, 15 min. just de-cluttering or paperwork, do some yoga or stretching, take a hot bath (probably lots of detox baths,) light some candles &, reflect on my day, journal, meditate, and reflect on my day.

Every Evening this week… I will not go to bed with out planning my intentions for the next day!!!

Every Evening this week… I will #glowtosleep early!

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So, those are my weekly Intentions!

Setting the “tone” for my week right now. Getting organized is going to be so good for “My Soul!” (P.S. Start Catalyst Camp AKA. De-clutter Camp tomorrow too!) I am actually excited about this week! So, between the two challenges.  I am working my way towards success and balance in my life. Today, is my “real” first day of the New Year.  It’s all about ME! Every step I take will be in the direction of my goals, dreams, and happiness!

Well, that pretty much sums it all up! I am excited to share my weekly successes here! I am ready to make this week AMAZING!

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What are your Weekly Intentions? Do you have daily routines? Are you prepping today for success in your week?

XOXO,

Laurie~*

 

 

 

Another Year Bites The Dust — Welcome 2015

Happy New Year’s Eve!

Looking back in retrospect, 2014 has been pretty AMAZING! It doesn’t feel the same as last year on New Year’s Eve. Last year I was happy to say “KICK ROCKS,” and welcomed twenty-fourteen with open arms. Right from the start, I knew it was going to be a great year! And it was! Everything I did this year, kept me moving in forward motion. Step by step, everything I did. all the lessons learned, were positive and  set all my wheels in motion.

I spent my year surrounded by positive friends! Learning and growing as a person every chance that I got! This year I soaked up everything like a sponge. Really got down and dirty in my journal and shining a flashlight on what is working for me and what no longer serves me.

* My grades in School were Awesome, I am am very proud of them. I worked very hard to get them and pushed through the stress and came out on top every time.

* I practice meditation almost everyday, I learned some cool stuff like Ayurveda, learned about my Chakras, and really did some inner personal growth work on myself.

* I found out a lot about myself and through Morning Pages & my journals, I have a clear vision of what I want and NEED in my life.

Anyways, as I look back over the year all I can do is smile. I made it. I survived. I am blessed beyond measure and grateful for everything! I am ready for the new blessings that The Universe has for me in the New Year! I am truly grateful for everything that has come in my life and every thing that has left!

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I found this interesting article on Mind Body Green:
12 Rituals To Do In 12 Days To Guarantee 12 Months Of Love & Prosperity

I am literally excited, for whatever 2015 has in store for me!

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I want to say Thank YOU, to all of you for being a pat of my Journey, and my Journey continues……..

So I want to wish you all a wonderful New Year filled with blessings and happiness!

— May The Force Be With YOU.

XOXO,

Laurie~*

Thankful Thursday!!!

Happy Thankful Thursday!!!

Good Morning! & Happy Thursday!  It’s almost the weekend, which really (almost) means nothing to me. Most of my homework is due on the weekends. My husband works shift work so, he is not always home on the weekends. My kids are older and they are busy off with their friends and stuff. But, I look forward to weekends all the same. Even if they mean, being more productive on the weekends. ❤

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This week, I had a breakthrough that I talked about a little bit, but I needs to be incorporated in things that I am Thankful for! I am Thankful to MYSELF for taking the time for Self-Care! I worked out Monday and realized, my body is just not right! I have known this for a long time. But, when I took a step back and admitted there is a problem that NEEDS to be fixed in order for me to move forward in my life. I live with Back/Hip pain! It’s always there, I don’t even always acknowledge it. In fact, most of the time, I just go on with my day and pretend it’s not there.

I do workouts I shouldn’t be doing until the problem gets fixed. I mean REALLY fixed. After Monday’s not so awesome workouts, I declared this Yoga week and Fix my back week! I’ve happily  & thankfully, made it to yoga every day! I started yesterday, with Physical Therapy, with a friend of a friend, who specializes in Cranial Sacral Therapy and holistic health. I’m pretty sure by the time I am done, that statement will read, physical therapy with MY FRIEND, not just a friend of a friend. Anyways, I knew the second I made the appointment that I was doing the right thing for my body and I have waited too long. Suffered too long. She seems to think a lot of my back problems come from my gut. Which makes sense. And, I have hip problems, because they are out of alignment. I knew about my hips. Ever since I broke my leg a couple years ago and was non-weight bearing for 4 or 5 months. My hips get sometimes up to two inches off! When it get’s really bad, I see a chiropractor, and I get a massage once a month. However, I have not fixed the problem! I go for a couple visits, until I feel better and then stop. But, this time I chose to do the Physical Therapy AND Chiro AND Massage, until I remember what it is like to live without back pain. Also, it will allow me to do the workouts I have been avoiding due to pain. This is a major act of Self-Care for me! I HATE appointments! The exception is massages. But, the results don’t last long for me. I also have scoliosis. Anyways, sorry that got a mile long. The point I am trying to make is, I finally admitted that it’s a REAL problem and I am REALLY gonna fix it this time.

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Spread Kindness To One Person a Day! I love this! I think that I do. I can always practice, being more aware of my actions and feelings and work on this! This world really does need more kindness!

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Be Kind, for everyone is fighting their battle too! How true is that!!! You can never know what a person is really going through!

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What ARE YOU Thankful For today?

I could list a million things! But I will keep my list to 10!

1~* My Friends, online and IRL!

2~* My Family! Online and IRL! By blood & by Soul attachment!

3~* Ohhh… I have a massage in three hours!!!!

5~* Being KIND to myself. That is always not so easy being a Wife and Mother! Because, guilt creeps in! Y’all know what I talking about. All these co-pays for me getting fixed could be Christmas presents for my family! Dang Mom Guilt!

6~* My home. While some people don’t even have a home, I need to be grateful for this.

7~* Yes, coffee and Fuzzy socks always make my list.

8~* The holidays are coming and I don’t feel as stressed out this year!

9~* My daily writing. It is helping me work through a lot of my issues.

10~* Last but not least, just that I feel like I am on the right path! I have came a LONG way in terms of self-growth! My dreams are in sight, I just have to take it one day at a time with steps towards them MOVING FORWARD!

Anyways, please leave comments and tell me what YOU are thankful for!!!

XOXO, Blessings to all!!!!!

Laurie~*

Happy Halloween — Goodbye October — Hello November

Happy Halloween! & a BIG TGIF!!!

I blinked! And another Month slipped by me! Where I live in Washington State it’s also Goodbye Fall Hello Winter Month in November! So I want to make the most of these last of these FEW Fall days. The weather kin of changes from all out summer to gray, gloomy,crappy and rainy! There are very few “beautiful fall days,” before Winter hits. Winters here aren’t too bad (knock on wood!) But, as a summer girl who deals with S.A.D. more difficult! I am currently looking at Natural Sunlight Lamps in my other window, while I type this. Every year I say, “I need to get one of those!” & Every year goes by and I forget or say I’ll get one later. THE TIME IS NOW! Also, on my fall bucket list is get into the allergist! I know I am in for weekly shots, but the payoff can be huge! I spend so much time wrestling with sinus problems! I can Immunity Boost all day everyday. But, in the end I end up with Sinus Infection after Sinus Infection. I put those two acts of Self-Care at the TOP of my priority list! Also, In between Fall and Winter quarter I need to get to Florida to see my mom and soak in a little Winter Florida Sunshine won’t hurt me a bit! ❤ These are my TOP Priorities!

Now for my fall/winter Intentions and Goals!

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Living in the Land of Overwhelm.

I did a big ole’ Brain Dump last night, and continued it in my Morning Pages (at 2 freakin AM,) which I am currently going into week 8 with The Artist Way  ! I have to take a moment to be SUPER “grateful” that I am going through this and also, keeping up with A Course In Miracles.

I have a LOT going on and a long list of things I want and NEED to accomplish during the month of November! However, when I break it down into a time frame and time management every day, there is NO NEED to be stressed out about it! Everything I am doing is inching me a step closer to my dreams and goals. Super exciting stuff going on! Time management and planning is KEY!

My timer is my BEST FRIEND for projects, studying, working out, Fall/Clean Sweep with a Feng Shui twist, ME TIME, writing, etc. etc. I just have to take everything step by step — and day by day and I totally got this.

JUST BREATHE!

Today I am working on a rock solid plan to keep up with everything for the whole month. There are things that are just non-negotiable and need to get done.

– November Intentions –

~* I Intend to workout every day — no exceptions/ excuses! Even if it is a active rest day! This is at the top of the list, because this is ME time and and will help with future goals.

~* I Intend to EAT CLEAN — this is for my health and energy levels, this is just as easy as sticking to a plan, meal prep etc.

~* Carve out my study time — Just like it is my job! Eliminate distractions during this time. Time for school studying and time for self-improvement and studying for my certifications.

~* This one may seem crazy — but, it’s something I WANT! I am writing just 50,000 words in November for my Novel. That’s only 1667 words a day. This may seem like a lot of work but for me it’s play/creative time! I joined a group and an taking the challenge and I am not looking at this as one more task To-Do. I have a million stories crowding my head space, time to take the leap and get some of it out!

~* The most dreaded of these tasks is House Stuff! Again, my timer is my BEST Friend! And, sticking to my plan that I will have written out for each day.

Trust me…All this stuff can make my head spin too, if I think too much on it. So…… I am not going to think on all of it after today, I am just going to do it. I’m not working right now I GOT THIS! Breaking out planners, calendars, etc. Success is my only option! I am actually excited for this month and excited to get set in my schedule and work through my Intentions. ❤

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Wishing you all your own success in November — On step — One Day at a time~*

XOXO,

Laurie~*

Sensational Sunday — Random Thoughts

Happy Sensational Sunday!

MAN I’VE BEEN BUSY! (In a good, AMAZING WAY!) Sorry, for my lack of keeping up on the blog! First of all school is Fabulous! It’s a little more than I bargained for in the homework/assignment department! But, making it work! Three all online classes is NUTS! I knew that going in, but it’s kinda like having a baby! You forget the PAIN and work that goes into all of it! (LOL!) I made it through the cleanse I was doing last week. I feel SO much better. Nothing crazy,  just really a eat real food cleanse! Got some good workouts in. Feel like I have FINALLY taken care of my back/hip problems! Now, I just need maintenance! Feeling like myself again and it’s beyond words.

And, The Truth Shall Set You Free… After posting a little about my not eating as good as I should be, and gaining weight, I felt the biggest, hugest, RELIEF off of my shoulders! And, I talked to my friends about it as well. It was like I did a 180. And, just getting it out there, was enough to get me back on track. I went to the doctor last Friday and my cholesterol is WAY too high! I mean WAY! So, it was a major wake up call! Ever since then, I had some “Heart to Hearts” with my good friends and it just clicked and change happened! Not on the outside, but on the inside! It feels like my last blog post was a million years ago! I consciously made the decision to do better and I have. There is something really amazing about the Mind/Body connection! Then all the other pieces of my life started falling into the right places!

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I hope you had an amazing weekend! I know I did! It started out on Thursday with a girls day trip out of town to go get a book for school, some shopping, and had a wonderful Girls Night out on Friday! I have been spending the weekend doing glowFIT instructor training. I will be all day today, as well. I literally made the decision Thursday to GO FOR IT! And, I am so excited! I finally feel like…… I am exactly where I need to be in life and doing WHAT I should be doing! It’s the BEST feeling in the world! I am so “Inspired!”

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Anyways, busy, busy! My school work is going to be, a major catch up session, and I got this! No worries! At first I was stressed out and deiced it is not worth stressing out over! I’ve totally GOT THIS! Good things are happening and I am staying on the train, riding it out, and taking time to “enjoy the view!”

I hope you all are having a great weekend!!!

Lots of LOVE!!

Laurie~